The ending of JOBLESS life

Finally, the last call had arrived!

I am going to be posted in JOHOR, as expected.

Happy??? Yes, definitely :) I am no longer JOBLESS.

16th Dec 2013 is going to be a historical date to me.

The day I register myself to the Johor state Health Department (JKN) and I can know exactly which hospital I am going to working soon!

There are 13 of us from USM get posted in Johor.

Great! hehe~ 

Hope for the best for all my friends :)

Really hope there are some coursemate work together with me!!!

Hospital Sultanah Aminah (HSA) is my first option.

It is a huge Hospital in JB...

Red-coloured, with magnificant sea view :)

A busy and hectic one I guess.

I sincerely hope that I can cope with it well :)

*Pray Hard*

Waiting for Monday (16th Dec) to come... ... ... ...

PRP (Provisionally Registered Pharmacist) Life going to START soon. 

REAL SOON.

One step closer

Provisionally Registered Pharmacist

The second letter, from the Malaysian Pharmacy Board, is received. A good sign, meaning that I am ONE STEP CLOSER to be a PHARMACIST (Provisionally Registered Pharmacist,PRP). On the other hand, this means that my way-too-easy-and-free-and-boring life is going to end soon. What I am going to do now is to wait for the last call from the Ministry of Health, to register myself and start my BRAND NEW LIFE.

Soon. Very Soon.

To be frank, I am not so ready, yet. Not so ready to have any commitments and responsibilities, after being so stress-free for about 5 months. BUT, this is what I am supposed to do. OR I should say this is what I am waiting for, after studying so hard for 4 years in USM. Waiting to serve the Nation, the country, the TAX PAYERS :)

I am not so sure, by now, what should I suppose to do to prepare myself. I sincerely hope that all my KNOWLEDGE about DRUGS is still attaching strongly in my brain, after 5 months of 'DRUG-free' period.. I pray silently in my heart that I can have full strength to gracefully go through the 52 weeks of PRP's life in whatever Hospital: working under great preceptors, meeting good friends and colleagues and seniors, earning what-so-ever experiences as well as bombarding myself with even more clinical knowledge...

It is so hard to believe that in another one month time, I will be wearing a white coat and get myself enrolled in the healthcare world. I am SERIOUSLY nervous. Million of thoughts running in my mind. I really hope that I can cope with it well. I should have more CONFIDENCE and FAITH in myself, keep monologue-ing in my heart: I am the BEST!!!

I believe that when the time comes, everything will be fine. REAL FINE. 

For the time being, what I need to do is pray REAL hard for my posting (Johor?Melacca?Seremban?). AND enjoy the every moment right now before I am too busy to enjoy my life. AND perhaps, PACKING (pack my formal clothes and maybe some food, just in case I need to go far away) 

Best of luck to me.

and........

Best of luck to those PRPs that are about to register themself on 4th Nov :)

The Road Not taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

By Robert Frost


This is the poem I love the most.

There is often a diverging of choices for us in some point of our life.
Too much to choose, is often the major problem.
We will never know, which choice is better.
No turning back...
There is NO WAY to come back to the beginning.
But we can choose to enjoy during the journey we had chosen.
Whatever we choose, we are destined to be.
WALK the way we choose...
STRIKE for the best!  
Till the end... ... ... ...

Big Feast

Lately, I went for a SERIOUSLY super classy Japanese buffet lunch at Jogoya, StarHill Gallery.

It is my first visit there. 

OR I should say this is my first time to pay so much money for a meal.
Not to mention, it is EXPENSIVE, despite the 50% OFF for ladies.
However, I could say that the price is totally worth; for the wide variety of food from Japanese, Western and Chinese cuisine, the free flowing Hagen-Daze ice-cream as well as the romantic and tranquillizing atmosphere.

I do enjoy the buffet, A LOT!
The place and the food is totally amazed me.

And it is really PERFECT to hang out with friends at place like that.

Nevertheless, I can feel my heart-aching.
Not because of the pricing (Well.... Undeniable, price do contribute a little for my heart-aching)...
BUT I somehow feel a bit guilty to having such a big feast while some people in other part of the world are struggling so hard, just to fight for one bite.
After the buffet, looking at my own table and other tables around, inevitable, there is always some wastage of food.
The bad feelings and guilts, again, overwhelming.

The poor need FOOD TO LIVE while others LIVE FOR FOOD!

This sounds pessimistic, but I do feel bad, really BAD!

Just the a Chinese saying goes: 朱门酒肉臭，路有冻死骨。

What to do?

I do enjoy A LOT, as well.

Of cause, I am NOT so rich enough to say loudly that the buffet is affordable or reasonable...

But ONCE IN A BLUE MOON... ... 

A little bit of ENJOYMENT for food, sounds no harm... ...

(Though, deep in my heart, I do feel that paying so much money for A MEAL is often UNNECESSARY)

Young Geriatrics

Geriatric.
I am just like a geriatric with a lot of problem.

Rigid neck. Frozen shoulder. Back pain.
And lately, I found myself with serious problem on my knee.
To be precise, my joints and muscle. Severely pain and stiffed!

Next, my eyes.
Tired and strained eyes.
Blurred vision sometimes ( as if I had taken anti-cholinergics)
FYI, I am actually half-blinded with my thick specs off.

Headache.
As if my brain is overworked.
Overloaded with too much thoughts and worries.

I am just like an old woman.
A young geriatric.

I am pretty sure that these are ALL my fault.
I am not good in taking care of my own health, my own body.

Having a bad posture while reading.
Static for hours while studying or doing assignments.
Caffeine addiction.
Overworking brain.
Radiation exposure.
Over-strained eyes on laptop and handphone.
Poor diet.
Skipped breakfast, sometimes.

As a healthcare professional, i should have know all the good things for health.
BUT,
It is never easy to take it into action.
I am more than worrying, somehow.
I just couldn't make a promise to myself to take care of my own health.

Owhhhhhh....
I guess I need a reminder, from friends and family.

To all, please do remind ME:

1. Do exercise, but never overwork it (as it may injured your joints and muscles)
2. Cut down caffeine intake ( A big challenge. To me, especially. The aroma of coffee is just so tempting)
3. Rest your eyes for 1 mins by looking far away or close your eyes, every 30 mins of work on eyes. ( Is so hard as i never get it done well.)
4. Stretch yourself after motionless for some time while working. MOVE IT! MOVE IT!
5. Breakfast is a MUST
6. Have a balanced diet.
7. Relax yourself. RELAX. Physically and mentally.
8.  Try your best to have enough sleep. In short, sleep whenever you got a chance!

9. Drink more water. Keep HYDRATED!
10. Don't worry, be happy.

All those rules of health are so simple, yet hard to be applied.
I wonder why?

I understand that it is much more easier to say it than do it.

Effort is needed, i know.

I am hoping for a better tomorrow.
BUT before that,
I should be a better me, from NOW onwards.

I am geriatric young!!!!!!!!!!

Delirium

READING, is always my hobby. Since young.
It is always hard for me to begin to read a new book. BUT once it get initiated, I am totally IMMERSED into it.

Lately, I had discovered AWESOME novel.
The DELIRIUM series by Lauren Oliver.
A trilogy.
#Delirium#  #Pandemonium#  #Requiem#

In this trilogy, LOVE ♥ is a dangerous illness with deadly symptoms. 

Amor Deliria Nervosa. 
In the story, falling in love is totally FORBIDDEN.
Treatment and procedure is available to cure the disease.
Evaluation is made before the procedure. The evaluator will match both with similar score during the evaluation. Get paired. Lastly, after the cure, get MARRIED and live happily ever after.

There is NO Love ♥ between both. Deliria-free.

In the other side of this land, is 'The Wild' in which the 'Invalids' live.

'Invalids' do exist. The UNCURED.

Fighting for survival. Fighting for freedom to Love.

They want Love. TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED!

An interesting story. 

Highly recomended to read.

LOVE.

Everyone wanted it so much. 

Craved for it, crazily.

I wonder why?

Hormonal change, i guess.

Is so amazing to love.

To hug. To touch. To kiss.

However, lately, love is no loger just a boy-girl thinggy.

People often attracted by the same gender.

SO WHAT?

Is fine, actually.

Love is just a feeling. An emotion. A disease.

Involuntarily infect the whole world.

Everyone.

Being UNEMPLOYED: A bless or a curse

I am not so sure if being unemployed for almost 5 months is a bless or curse.

I am far more than FREE at home actually. IDLENESS. But I am not relaxing, neither, at all.

#THROWBACK# 

5 months had passed since I left Penang after my FINAL final exam for my last semester.

With this, I am unofficially graduated and officially unemployed.

It is just like a long long VACATION to me, before I can get a call for work in the Government Hospital.

Is a long WAIT, I guess. Thus, I have plenty of things in my mind. 

PLANNED. But I am never a stick-to-plan type person.

Nevertheless, I do have some meaningful stuff done to fill my free time: 

Having random trips (Perak, Penang, KL, Singapore, Cambodia, Yo Jakarta and Batam),

jogging (REAL jog!), 

dating (with my beloved), 

reading books (I am about to blog about those books I had read. SOON! Stay tune!),

teaching tuition (Surprisingly, I am teaching History...hehe!), 

doing housechore (Exactly a CINDEELLA), 

watching random movies, 

catching up with high school friends (never out of topics no matter how ;D),

blogging (in which I just started yesterday and just found out that I really have a lot of things in my mind to share to the world)

All these activities make my boring and empty life eventful and happening! 

At least, I am still doing SOMETHING :)

Not to get my mind and soul left inactive.

It is really BLISSFUL having so much free time and doing anything I LOVE, anytime, anywhere.

On the other hand, being too free at home is also a curse.

Sometimes, my brain tends to work hyper-actively.

There are billion of neurotransmitters in my brain, working diligently.

This is the reason why I always think too much, putting myself in a state of depression.

I like to think in ADVANCED on things that NEVER even happened.

Thinking about LIFE. The PURPOSE of living in this earth.

Keep wondering about every single things.

The world have so much things left UNEXPLAINED.

I know I should STOP that. STOP thinking and worrying too much.

I should have work part time to earn some money OR prevent myself from thinking too much OR maybe work in a pharmacy to earn some experiences.

But I DID NOT do so.

Even though money flows UNIDIRECTIONAL during this whole period... ...

Anyway, I am going to be absorbed into the WORKING PHASE very soon. 

TICK-TOCK-TICK-TOCK

TIME ticks away slowly, bit-by-bit. 

But it seems like rocketing.

Thus, I am going to enjoy to the fullest before I start my working life.

A busy and hectic one, I guess.

=THE END=