Friday 13 December 2013

The ending of JOBLESS life

Finally, the last call had arrived!
I am going to be posted in JOHOR, as expected.
Happy??? Yes, definitely :) I am no longer JOBLESS.

16th Dec 2013 is going to be a historical date to me.
The day I register myself to the Johor state Health Department (JKN) and I can know exactly which hospital I am going to working soon!
There are 13 of us from USM get posted in Johor.
Great! hehe~ 
Hope for the best for all my friends :)
Really hope there are some coursemate work together with me!!!

Hospital Sultanah Aminah (HSA) is my first option.
It is a huge Hospital in JB...
Red-coloured, with magnificant sea view :)
A busy and hectic one I guess.
I sincerely hope that I can cope with it well :)

*Pray Hard*

Waiting for Monday (16th Dec) to come... ... ... ...

PRP (Provisionally Registered Pharmacist) Life going to START soon. 
REAL SOON.



Monday 28 October 2013

One step closer

Provisionally Registered Pharmacist
The second letter, from the Malaysian Pharmacy Board, is received. A good sign, meaning that I am ONE STEP CLOSER to be a PHARMACIST (Provisionally Registered Pharmacist,PRP). On the other hand, this means that my way-too-easy-and-free-and-boring life is going to end soon. What I am going to do now is to wait for the last call from the Ministry of Health, to register myself and start my BRAND NEW LIFE.

Soon. Very Soon.

To be frank, I am not so ready, yet. Not so ready to have any commitments and responsibilities, after being so stress-free for about 5 months. BUT, this is what I am supposed to do. OR I should say this is what I am waiting for, after studying so hard for 4 years in USM. Waiting to serve the Nation, the country, the TAX PAYERS :)

I am not so sure, by now, what should I suppose to do to prepare myself. I sincerely hope that all my KNOWLEDGE about DRUGS is still attaching strongly in my brain, after 5 months of 'DRUG-free' period.. I pray silently in my heart that I can have full strength to gracefully go through the 52 weeks of PRP's life in whatever Hospital: working under great preceptors, meeting good friends and colleagues and seniors, earning what-so-ever experiences as well as bombarding myself with even more clinical knowledge...

It is so hard to believe that in another one month time, I will be wearing a white coat and get myself enrolled in the healthcare world. I am SERIOUSLY nervous. Million of thoughts running in my mind. I really hope that I can cope with it well. I should have more CONFIDENCE and FAITH in myself, keep monologue-ing in my heart: I am the BEST!!!

I believe that when the time comes, everything will be fine. REAL FINE. 
For the time being, what I need to do is pray REAL hard for my posting (Johor?Melacca?Seremban?). AND enjoy the every moment right now before I am too busy to enjoy my life. AND perhaps, PACKING (pack my formal clothes and maybe some food, just in case I need to go far away) 

Best of luck to me.
and........
Best of luck to those PRPs that are about to register themself on 4th Nov :)

Sunday 27 October 2013

The Road Not taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


By Robert Frost


This is the poem I love the most.

There is often a diverging of choices for us in some point of our life.
Too much to choose, is often the major problem.
We will never know, which choice is better.
No turning back...
There is NO WAY to come back to the beginning.
But we can choose to enjoy during the journey we had chosen.
Whatever we choose, we are destined to be.
WALK the way we choose...
STRIKE for the best!  
Till the end... ... ... ...

Thursday 24 October 2013

Big Feast

Lately, I went for a SERIOUSLY super classy Japanese buffet lunch at Jogoya, StarHill Gallery.

It is my first visit there. 
OR I should say this is my first time to pay so much money for a meal.
Not to mention, it is EXPENSIVE, despite the 50% OFF for ladies.
However, I could say that the price is totally worth; for the wide variety of food from Japanese, Western and Chinese cuisine, the free flowing Hagen-Daze ice-cream as well as the romantic and tranquillizing atmosphere.

I do enjoy the buffet, A LOT!
The place and the food is totally amazed me.
And it is really PERFECT to hang out with friends at place like that.
Nevertheless, I can feel my heart-aching.
Not because of the pricing (Well.... Undeniable, price do contribute a little for my heart-aching)...
BUT I somehow feel a bit guilty to having such a big feast while some people in other part of the world are struggling so hard, just to fight for one bite.
After the buffet, looking at my own table and other tables around, inevitable, there is always some wastage of food.
The bad feelings and guilts, again, overwhelming.
The poor need FOOD TO LIVE while others LIVE FOR FOOD!

This sounds pessimistic, but I do feel bad, really BAD!

Just the a Chinese saying goes: 朱门酒肉臭,路有冻死骨

What to do?
I do enjoy A LOT, as well.
Of cause, I am NOT so rich enough to say loudly that the buffet is affordable or reasonable...
But ONCE IN A BLUE MOON... ... 
A little bit of ENJOYMENT for food, sounds no harm... ...
(Though, deep in my heart, I do feel that paying so much money for A MEAL is often UNNECESSARY)

Wednesday 23 October 2013

Young Geriatrics

Geriatric.
I am just like a geriatric with a lot of problem.

Rigid neck. Frozen shoulder. Back pain.
And lately, I found myself with serious problem on my knee.
To be precise, my joints and muscle. Severely pain and stiffed!

Next, my eyes.
Tired and strained eyes.
Blurred vision sometimes ( as if I had taken anti-cholinergics)
FYI, I am actually half-blinded with my thick specs off.

Headache.
As if my brain is overworked.
Overloaded with too much thoughts and worries.

I am just like an old woman.
A young geriatric.

I am pretty sure that these are ALL my fault.
I am not good in taking care of my own health, my own body.
Having a bad posture while reading.
Static for hours while studying or doing assignments.
Caffeine addiction.
Overworking brain.
Radiation exposure.
Over-strained eyes on laptop and handphone.
Poor diet.
Skipped breakfast, sometimes.

As a healthcare professional, i should have know all the good things for health.
BUT,
It is never easy to take it into action.
I am more than worrying, somehow.
I just couldn't make a promise to myself to take care of my own health.

Owhhhhhh....
I guess I need a reminder, from friends and family.
To all, please do remind ME:

1. Do exercise, but never overwork it (as it may injured your joints and muscles)
2. Cut down caffeine intake ( A big challenge. To me, especially. The aroma of coffee is just so tempting)
3. Rest your eyes for 1 mins by looking far away or close your eyes, every 30 mins of work on eyes. ( Is so hard as i never get it done well.)
4. Stretch yourself after motionless for some time while working. MOVE IT! MOVE IT!
5. Breakfast is a MUST
6. Have a balanced diet.
7. Relax yourself. RELAX. Physically and mentally.
8.  Try your best to have enough sleep. In short, sleep whenever you got a chance!
9. Drink more water. Keep HYDRATED!
10. Don't worry, be happy.

All those rules of health are so simple, yet hard to be applied.
I wonder why?

I understand that it is much more easier to say it than do it.
Effort is needed, i know.

I am hoping for a better tomorrow.
BUT before that,
I should be a better me, from NOW onwards.

I am geriatric young!!!!!!!!!!






Sunday 20 October 2013

Delirium



READING, is always my hobby. Since young.
It is always hard for me to begin to read a new book. BUT once it get initiated, I am totally IMMERSED into it.


Lately, I had discovered AWESOME novel.
The DELIRIUM series by Lauren Oliver.
A trilogy.
#Delirium#  #Pandemonium#  #Requiem#

In this trilogy, LOVE  is a dangerous illness with deadly symptoms. 
Amor Deliria Nervosa. 
In the story, falling in love is totally FORBIDDEN.
Treatment and procedure is available to cure the disease.
Evaluation is made before the procedure. The evaluator will match both with similar score during the evaluation. Get paired. Lastly, after the cure, get MARRIED and live happily ever after.
There is NO Love ♥ between both. Deliria-free.

In the other side of this land, is 'The Wild' in which the 'Invalids' live.
'Invalids' do exist. The UNCURED.
Fighting for survival. Fighting for freedom to Love.
They want Love. TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED!

An interesting story. 
Highly recomended to read.

LOVE.
Everyone wanted it so much. 
Craved for it, crazily.
I wonder why?
Hormonal change, i guess.

Is so amazing to love.
To hug. To touch. To kiss.

However, lately, love is no loger just a boy-girl thinggy.
People often attracted by the same gender.
SO WHAT?
Is fine, actually.
Love is just a feeling. An emotion. A disease.
Involuntarily infect the whole world.
Everyone.






Being UNEMPLOYED: A bless or a curse

I am not so sure if being unemployed for almost 5 months is a bless or curse.
I am far more than FREE at home actually. IDLENESS. But I am not relaxing, neither, at all.

#THROWBACK# 
5 months had passed since I left Penang after my FINAL final exam for my last semester.
With this, I am unofficially graduated and officially unemployed.
It is just like a long long VACATION to me, before I can get a call for work in the Government Hospital.
Is a long WAIT, I guess. Thus, I have plenty of things in my mind. 
PLANNED. But I am never a stick-to-plan type person.

Nevertheless, I do have some meaningful stuff done to fill my free time: 
Having random trips (Perak, Penang, KL, Singapore, Cambodia, Yo Jakarta and Batam),
jogging (REAL jog!), 
dating (with my beloved), 
reading books (I am about to blog about those books I had read. SOON! Stay tune!),
teaching tuition (Surprisingly, I am teaching History...hehe!), 
doing housechore (Exactly a CINDEELLA), 
watching random movies
catching up with high school friends (never out of topics no matter how ;D),
blogging (in which I just started yesterday and just found out that I really have a lot of things in my mind to share to the world)

All these activities make my boring and empty life eventful and happening
At least, I am still doing SOMETHING :)
Not to get my mind and soul left inactive.

It is really BLISSFUL having so much free time and doing anything I LOVE, anytime, anywhere.
On the other hand, being too free at home is also a curse.

Sometimes, my brain tends to work hyper-actively.
There are billion of neurotransmitters in my brain, working diligently.
This is the reason why I always think too much, putting myself in a state of depression.
I like to think in ADVANCED on things that NEVER even happened.
Thinking about LIFE. The PURPOSE of living in this earth.
Keep wondering about every single things.
The world have so much things left UNEXPLAINED.
I know I should STOP that. STOP thinking and worrying too much.

I should have work part time to earn some money OR prevent myself from thinking too much OR maybe work in a pharmacy to earn some experiences.
But I DID NOT do so.
Even though money flows UNIDIRECTIONAL during this whole period... ...
Anyway, I am going to be absorbed into the WORKING PHASE very soon. 

TICK-TOCK-TICK-TOCK
TIME ticks away slowly, bit-by-bit. 
But it seems like rocketing.
Thus, I am going to enjoy to the fullest before I start my working life.
A busy and hectic one, I guess.







=THE END=









Saturday 19 October 2013

The road taken: Being a Pharmacist

I am a pharmacist-to-be.
A new phase of life is going to start soon. Very SOON.
Receiving the offer letter as a U41 Pharmacist gives me a mixed feelings of excitement and uncertainty.
I’m just can’t imagine how a pharmacist’s life can be…?
Hectic? Erratic? Or perhaps… FANTASTIC???

A lot of challenges awaiting… …

I am pretty sure that I am going to like this job, or should I say LOVE it…?
At least, theoretically, I shall LOVE this job……I supposed!

However, deep in my heart, I know that it is more than just a job.
#PHARMACEUTICAL CARE# is always the priority (just as lecturers always highlighted on)
Without pharmaceutical care, a prescription is just a piece of nothing;
Without pharmaceutical care, medicines are just simply liquids or pills;
Without pharmaceutical care, lab values are just NUMBERS;
Without pharmaceutical care, a patient is always a patient (We are expecting a healthy one, of cause!)
Doctors might give the best treatment and prescribe the best medicine to a patient.
BUT with the wrong dose OR wrong dosage form OR wrong way OR wrong time of administration,
It is NO WAY to be fine in improving one’s health.

Here, pharmacists come in role J

#THROWBACK# Final Year of undergrad# USM# Clerkship#
This is the time I actually know exactly what is going on to be a pharmacist.

Being a DRUG DEALER is never an easy job, especially when working in a hospital.
It is much more complex and complicated in terms of the pharmacist’s job scope: Outpatient Pharmacy, Satellite Pharmacy, Therapeutic Drug Monitoring (TDM), Total Parenteral Nutrition (TPN), Drug Information System (DIS), Cytotoxic Drug Reconstitution (CDR), Management Pharmacy and Inventory and Ward Pharmacy as well as Clinical Pharmacy.

I actually attached to Hospital USM and Penang GH during my final year clerkship.
Observation, rather than hands-on-experience.
Hardly explain everything in words, as the diversity of the role of a pharmacist is AMAZINGLY far beyond my knowing.
It is NEVER just DISPENSING or SELLING medicines behind the counter---like a businessman, just like what people always see in the outpatient counter in a clinic/hospital or a community pharmacy.

I actually enjoyed the time during the final semester, rotating different ward.
Different from the other PHARMACY-BASED department, ward pharmacy is more challenging as pharmacist is not only dealing with drugs BUT MORE---close contact with patients, frequent updates of patients’ condition  as well as communication with doctors and nurses.

Having the WHITE COAT on in the ward is really HOTTT and STUFFFFY, but the feeling of responsibility and commitment as a pharmacist (Well… I am still not a real one, by now) is dominating.

During clerkship, we learn our clinical knowledge by case study-ing.
We clerk a patient, gather all his/her health-related information, identify DRUG-RELATED PROBLEM (or some says PHARMACEUTICAL CARE ISSUES) and lastly focus on monitoring and patient counseling.
We do detect some pharmaceutical care issues especially on the choice of medicine.
Obviously, it is definitely not our role as a PHARMACY STUDENT to question doctors’ decision on drug of choice.
However, as a learning process, a lot of question marks do POP OUT (Often a question mark without question…).
What I am trying to say is that the knowledge on clinical and drug information is really IMPORTANT.
A simple choice of drug has too much things to be considered, for instance, patient’s renal or liver profile, patient’s age, other concurrent illness or concurrent medicines… … the list goes on… …
In other words, a pharmacist should have all those drug information in his/her fingertips.
I hope I can be the one.

Besides having a better understanding about the role of ward pharmacist, on the other hand, I do, sometimes, feel curious that how hectic that doctors’ life could be, until they have no time to, at least, smile? (No Offense)

In pharmaceutical care, sometimes, doctors and pharmacists do think in different way.
Neither RIGHT, nor WRONG in clinical.
There is always a GRAY ZONE.
Just different perception, varying point of view.
Both are getting information from different source of references, perhaps.
Here comes DISCUSSION and COLLABORATION.
It is a life-long learning process, after all.

I feel quite sad; when I was told that pharmacist always work alone (maybe one or two) in ward. Unlike doctors, they work in team (Consultant, Specialist, Medical Officer and a bundle of houseman); as well as nurses, there are pretty much nurses work together in a ward.
 I am pretty sure that most people often neglect the existence of pharmacist in the ward.
 In ward, pharmacist’s role seems insignificant BUT definitely VITAL.
To be precise, all healthcare professional should be work together! It is like doctors, pharmacists and nurses work hand-joined for a better healthcare outcome.

Dealing with patients is another challenge.
BIG CHALLENGE, I could say.
COMPLIANCE is always an issue.
Patient compliance is critical despite the best treatment and the best medicine given.
Hence, another essential role of a pharmacist is to provide patient counselling: giving important advises on healthcare education, teaching the important steps on using special devices (Inhaler, insulin pen, eye drop), as well as some crucial highlights on medicine administration.
I hope I can cope with it well :)

#As the saying goes… …#
Dr. Bala: THINK like a PHARMACIST, ACT like a PHARMACIST.
Prof Syed: The first thing when u look at patient’s case, calculate the CREATININE CLEARANCE.
Dr. Fatah: Calculator is a MUST.
Dr. Chong: Everything you said must come with EVIDENCE!


#Last piece of words#
I sincerely hope that I can be a great pharmacist, soon.
A brilliant one. A smart one. A caring one. An enthusiastic one.
I am joining the crew very soon. The DRUG EXPERT J






P/s: As mentioned above, I am still not YET a REAL pharmacist. Correct me if I am wrong about anything about this career. Hope to have a better understanding when I am really enrolled into it :) 

Best of luck to me!

New member in my life: Tara

She first came into my life on 2nd September 2013.
TARA, unexpectedly, is mine.

I never thought of having a car that early, at least not before I am financially stable. However, I am having Tara in my life right now!
Spending a few thousand bucks of mine for the down payment, road tax and car insurance before getting her. Still, another  5 years paying the bank loan, for the remaining.

The name—Tara, suits her the best.
She is silvery shinning. A small little 5-years-old silver Perodua My-Vi.
She is no longer a virgin as she had an owner before me.
I don’t mind actually.
She is still having functionable and powerful engine.
The down part, auto-locking system is not functioning well (This is bad, especially for someone like me, who is always so forgetful to get my car lock manually while driving)
Other than that, she works perfectly nice to me.

Tara had hospitalized for 2 days, in a few weeks back.
A reckless driver had knocked Tara on her right front door, leaving her a large scar and an uneven surface.
Tara is actually with her engine off by that time.
Pity Tara!
Luckily the driver had paid for everything and Tara was ALL RIGHT.

I am pretty cautious when I am bringing Tara on the road, ensuring everything is fine.
She is great and capable enough to bring me here and there.
Having a car is really a bliss as travelling to place to place becomes convenient.
Tara will be a great helper to bring me to my working place, in another one more month.
I promise that I will take good care of her and be extra-carefully when I am driving on her.


I LOVE Tara J

Thursday 14 March 2013

发泄


有时候,我很享受一个人的时候~
自由自在~ 可以做自己爱做的事情!
但是,
最近,一个人的时候,我好像不知道自己该做什么好?
或许是没有爱做的事情可以做了~
快窒息的感觉!
说不出的不爽~
想哭可是哭不出来!

为什么最近越变越脆弱?
不管是身体,还是心理。。。
就连理智的头脑也快被感性的心瓦解了!
免疫系统急速下降!
脑细胞和脑神经开始活跃!
有点无助。。。
如果说,一个笑容可以是坚强的代表。。。
那么我大概只有笑容是坚强的!

做人好累!
人,还是傻一点比较好!不要想那么多~

我其实很乐观~
有时一个人悲观,只是希望可以有人关心和注意。。。
因为没有人会担心乐观的人。。。